E-Gah!

Just feel like brain farting.

I'm so confused (And no, not in the sexual way). Confused with life. Where am I heading? The harder I try to make myself see forward, the positive side of things, I just see the misfitted, negative ugly side of almost everything. Maybe I'm just becoming too Cynical (Which I thought I already was doing TOO well at)? Or maybe I just have no clue what the fuck is going on.

Sigh. Its hard to explain. Maybe I got the blues? Maybe I don't. Maybe I'm just tired - tired of being the boring old me. Maybe what I need is to get out of here. How? I don't know.

I feel like the restart of life here has put me down in some way. I don't know how - I have a great family. I'm making new friends and having a great time with old ones. I've got an excellent job. It's not that I'm ungrateful, I am freakin grateful and blessed with such things. There are more unfortunate people out there. I just feel like I could do more. I could be more. I'm not happy with so many things - The more I know, the less I know. Some inverse bullshit going on.

UPDATE : Wrote this after a fuckin harsh day. Dream crushed but, eh, I got over it. Reading this article and the one before made me look slightly mad. But maybe I am!? Dun dun dunnnn~

Sigh.

Randall.

The Servant - Liquefy pretty much describes how I feel :|